Main who you want, it’s a game. If you’re not good with the character play them anyway, you’ll end up low enough that you’ll be with other people who aren’t good and if you care enough you’ll get better. Just because you’re a female doesn’t mean you should feel shamed for playing a female character, they make up like half of them. Anyone who shames you is just a prick who thinks the game needs to revolve around them. The game is made to play as a team, playing with randoms you have a minute to coordinate all of that, it’s rarely ever going to go exactly as you want. If you don’t like that and think it’s holding you back, make a team, find a group, do what the game is made for. This Facebook group has a gagillion members, find ones that are like minded and enjoy playing the game.